Why is it so easy to fall in love
And so impossible to climb out

I feel like I'm at a bottom of well
calling out to anyone who would listen
And no one is throwing a rope

I think I just want someone to notice I am losing it without having to tell him
I want someone to offer an answer without having to ask the question

I don't want anyone to know how deep this hurt goes
but I want everyone to help
So I'm sinking deeper in myself
Into my pain, fear and emptiness.

I continue to maintain that I'm fine if anyone asks, but I'm not,
I'm breaking down and scared what will happen to my frame of mind

Things of God are slowly losing their meaning for me
Things of life are losing their meaning for me
I'm feeling disillusioned.

Friends around talk about prayers and God and change,
I would just roll my eyes

Maybe I'm not spiritual enough, but I feel he has forgotten about me.
God feels I must fight on my own, but I'm not strong enough

I'm not sad, I'm in pain that I feel everyday in my heart,
I'm dying inside, and soon I will be dead inside

I wonder how could such a thing as losing someone
I never really had, destroy my life.

I feel God can't hear me anymore, or at least doesn't want to,
I feel too unimportant and invisible for him to care...