There must be something missing? Something that I'm not seeing?
One day at a time, I can't keep up. I've lost grip to how things should be.
One of the things that I wanted to say.
Tripping over words, that are mind bottling in me.

I lost my interest, lost my train of thought.
Can't keep doing this, can't be bothered.
I'm here but not alive.
I feel the most died when I'm with you.
I thought you were my world, thought you had a purpose.
But you destroyed a part of me that can't be revived.
Departed my heart, ate me alive.
Is this what love's supposed to feel like?
Cut me down, brought me to places that I never could feel free.
Wanted to make things right, wanted you in my life.
I was stupid for thinking you were being true. For feeling mistreated, for not being able to be me.

Holding on to the memories that pulled us apart.
I've guarded what's the most important to me, kept under lock and key.
Hiding from the people who are most cherished to me.

This will be the last time I cry, the last time I say goodbye.
Seems to be impossible, takes every part of me.
Have to find a way to find a better place.
Have to find the better part of me.
Fighting for what feels like the impossible.

I'm fallen apart, with an unstable heart, in the past of no healing, can't find my meaning.
So I'm holding on, barely standing up. I've hit rock bottom, with nothing left in my cup.
Kills me to think you hurt me in the most criminal way.
Gave you chances to change, gave you chances to explain.

Let you inside even though it hurts.
You have a piece of me, and you took it right from my hand.
You had me in a place where I couldn't get back up.
I was on a drug, couldn't break free, kicked me when I was down, let me bleed out. Left me there not caring if I survived.
If I haven't been with you, everything would have been alright.
If I haven't seen what was really going on, I wouldn't have lost my insights.
You just brought me out here to drown, left my world, turned it around and upside down.
I'm so used to living in denial, of whom I really am.

Took my light and brought me into the darkness.
Can't remember when the last time I smiled, can't remember the last time I felt wanted.
Made me afraid of my own skin. Your lips are like the poison.
You poisoned my whole insides.

This will be the last time I cry, the last time I say goodbye.
Seems to be impossible, takes every part of me,
must find a way to find a better place,
must find the better part of me.
Fighting for what feels like the impossible,
for what's the best for me to see.
Fighting for where I need to be.