I wake myself up in the middle of the night
My face wet with tears and not a problem in site
Pleasant dreams become nightmares as crawl into bed
Far to many thoughts running around in my head
Confused about life and where I belong
Wondering if my decisions were right, or if I was wrong
I love my family I really do
But the secrets and lies, the games they try to play
It's too much for one person to be put through
I am forced to choose what side of the family im in
I've been back and forth a million times
My options are wearing thin
My little brothers mean the world to me
I've got my dad, my uncle, and my cousin nette
But on this side they need me more I see
I'm sure they can get by without me being here
But who will she take her rage out on
Drinking and taking to many pills is what I fear